Life at 28

Well, the birthday weekend festivities are over. I am 28 and struggling to figure out how that makes me feel. I am not at the age yet where I feel old, but I am really starting to see years going by quicker than I would like. Each year another door gets closed off. Silly things like after I turned 16 I knew I would not ever be an Olympic figure skater. Not that I ever had a chance or even worked toward that goal (I never even figure skated), but I just didn't like the thought that there was something I couldn't do. When I was 24 I read, surely in some stupid magazine that has a goal of making women feel terrible, that at 24 you would be at the most attractive of your life. Looking in the mirror, I thought, "This is as good as it gets? Oh crap!". Now, I am supposed to be a stable grown-up. I am, but what if I want to go back to school to be a lawyer or a chemical engineer or something? I really can't without disrupting lives around me. If I am going to have children, the reasonable window to start will be up in a few years. I may never get to do things like teach overseas.

I can honestly says that I am very content with life at 28, I just wish I didn't feel the doors of what is possible closing at such a deep level. I really am starting to see the need to stop putting off things I want to do for "someday".

Mother's Day 2006

I completed this layout after taking this picture with my mom today, Mother's Day. It may look a little cluttered, but I was just in that mood. I had such a nice day having brunch with my family.

Just doing a quick test to see how easy it is to change my blog banner.